summerglamgirl

Well I sabotaged myself again.  I could not make it to the gym because I had to work late and then I figured, “Well, maybe  I should treat myself as I am not going to lose anything today anyway now that I am not going to the gym.” Hence, I ate atleast 3 servings of chips.  They were popped chips from trader joes, nonetheless though detrimental to my much needed weight loss. I am so close but feel so far.  I have about 6 pounds to go, but it is so hard to get there.. Sometimes I think somewhere in my subconcious I actually hold myself back because I think “then what?”  What will I focus on then? Well there is plenty to focus on like six pack abs for those who love pilates like me, but you have to eat clean to achieve that… I just wanted to vent because right now I feel like crying.  I may try to work out on my stationary bike but I don’t know it is almost midnight here and I have to get up at 5:45 am… I was going to post a bikini pic tonight before the binge so I could refer back to in in a month and check my progress, but now I feel bloated.  Maybe I will anyway just to learn from this experience.